It's simple to remember how sovereign my God is when I re-read through my journal entries from a year ago. I just really enjoy reading through my words from exactly 365 days ago, because things have both changed so much, and remained exactly the same. That consistency is comforting, as I tend to struggle with change. Yet, there will always be changes in life that I anticipate; that I anxiously await. My God though? He does not change. And when I read words written in ink, in a scribble so familiar, I can see that even then my faith faltered. But even then I knew deep down what the truth of the matter was. Crazy how my thoughts were so consumed by the same thing on that day.
Feb. 3, 2012
I'm going home this weekend to see Cody Jon. I'm really hoping I get an opportunity to talk to him about Jesus. I'm going to spend my whole ride back to Nashville praying over my entire weekend, that it would be just filled with spiritual opportunities. I really need the Lord's guidance.
"for I am God, and there is no other."
"I will go before you, and will level the mountains."
I'm hoping the Lord will make it really clear to me when the right time to approach him is..that He will prepare his heart.. and that His spirit will be hovering. And that when the gospel is shared, he will give his life to the Lord.
Are my hopes to high? Do I really believe that can happen? Do I have that much faith? Aghh, I trust in the Lord and His perfect will. Only You can make dead things come to life.
*Lord I pray that you bring his dry bones to life, and continue creating me into something new.*
In order for that to happen, I must be intentional in my faith and in my walk. I must trust the Lord and have faith in God's plan. I must pray, a lot, staying in communication. I must eat, sleep, and breathe Jesus Christ. Be intentional.. God's will be done. <3<3<3
"So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
(2/3/13-Funny how that verse is on my apartment living room wall now.)
Feb. 4, 2012
I'm at home, and it's a little after midnight. I should probably sleep soon. I need to leave the house by 11am to head to the Boro. If I want to work out and have a nice morning.. I should wake up by 8 or 9 am, and shower by 10. So probably waking up closer to 8am. Wake up at 8am, run at 8:30, shower at 9:30, leave by 11am. Sounds like a plan! Then after, I have to get a haircut and go downtown with CJ. Also, do some homework! I haven't had any chances to talk with him about Jesus yet. It hasn't felt right to bring it up yet for some reason. I'm not sure if it will just "feel right" at some specific moment or not. It feels a tiny bit hopeless, which I know it isn't. But it feels like that sometimes. Going to read my bible for a couple of minutes before crashing out and sleeping. Staying positive as much as possible! The Lord has everything under control.. I just need to remember that. He is sovereign. He is good.
Goodnight,
Haley
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This month, I've been going through 1 and 2 Peter. It's been jam packed full of extremely fitting verses to encourage my situation lately, but his is one that has stuck out regarding salvation:
""But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord, a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promises, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:8-9"
His soon is not always the same as my soon. :)
And that, my friend, is a very good thing.
His timing, is beyond perfect;
& He is enough, ALWAYS.
